Charge Me With Ignorance.

In a world as realistic as the one we're living in, it is so easy to fall into this huge abyss dug out by Ignorance. I'm pretty sure every single one of you are guilty of this crime, where anything that doesn't concern you doesn't matter. Milgram's Obedience studies were proven right over and over again, even by different people recreating his experiment. He was right. We bow down to authority figures. We are too subservient to people who hold power over us. If anything goes wrong, we play the blame game. "It's not my fault. He told me to do it." "Oh, I didn't know." "It's none of my concern." So many excuses. Neverending flow of excuses. 

In my case, I prioritized myself over this poor defenseless person. I wish I was as the moralistic asshole as I preach but things didn't go that way. My excuse? I don't have an excuse. I wish I'd have done the right thing. Everyone in this uni is so afraid of people of authority that the dare not even speak a word against what is wrong. There is so much that's going wrong with our students. How can I someday allow them to be controlling the country if they somehow happen to be ministers or whatnot, when they exhibit absolutely no empathy?

AFS Interview / AFS Interview Tips / AFS Interview Experience

Hello dear clueless readers, 

I dedicate this blog post to help those who have applied for the AFS exchange programs and are waiting to be selected for the interview. I am an alumna of AFS YES 2011, and I was hosted in GA, USA. It was such a great experience! Anyway, back to the interview. I still remember vividly when I sent out my application back in Form 5 and waited ever so patiently for my name to be shortlisted, and to my surprise I saw my name on the list. I was very excited and nervous too, undoubtedly because you will have to pass the interview before being further filtered into a smaller number in another interview (in my case). I have another blog post dedicated to my experience of being interviewed (a very poorly written piece) but you can check it out by following this link : http://laffingfrikk.blogspot.com/2010/06/afs-interview.html 

Based on what I have gone through, what I can tell you is that do not be afraid. Do mix around with other people and don't just sit in a corner and observe other people like a creep. Make friends. Interact with the volunteers, they're really nice. When it is your turn for the interview, relax. Tensing up provides you no benefit and you can only get more nervous. Do not be afraid of the interviewers, because their job there is not to intimidate you, but to evaluate you. I can't tell you precisely what kind of questions they will pose because my memory has failed me but I'm sure the questions they ask aren't too bad. 

 

If you're wondering if grades play a vital part in determining if you get to go on the program of your choice, do not worry. Let me tell you something. I am embarrassed to say this but I applied for YES with three failed subjects. I did not hold positions of  significant impacts in my school, and I was not an all-rounded holistic student. Academic-wise, I was probably one of the worst students there, and I wish I was joking. Just do your best in the interview and everything will work out for you.

Okay children, that is all the words of knowledge I have to pass on to you guys. I hope you find my post informative and let me reiterate myself; DON'T FREAK OUT. Good luck and good bye.

Sunken Friend Ship Recovered. It Can't Ever Be The Same Anymore.

          Continuing from where I left off, one day I found out that I was no longer in a group of 3 for an assignment with A. I was so furious and my head figuratively had steam coming off in all directions (I found this out through another member). This other person told me that I had been replaced with someone else because A told her that I quitted from her group and that I found another group. Truth is, that's not what happened. She kicked me out without even telling me and finding out this raw shit from someone else made my blood boil. I walked to my lecturer's office immediately to settle this but he wasn't in, and it was just my luck that I bumped into A.

          Did I confront her? Oh hell yeh you bet your ass I did. I started losing my shit right in the hallway where I stopped her, and I asked her "why did you kick me out of your group?". And then she kept saying "I thought you had your own group already". Oh really ? If I had another group won't  you think that I'd have the courtesy to tell you? And then I demanded an explanation as to why has she been avoiding me, and it was because of something I did not even realize i did. She said I was not a true friend because there was one time where another friend, B, was stuck in the lecturer's office until someone verified she did her part in the assignment, and B sought for our help and I was supposed to go help her but I didn't. A accused me of leaving B in the lecturer's room on purpose but truth is, I don't fucking remember I had to go save her. I walked straight back to my dorm until A messaged me asking me why I left B there alone. A defended that since I have to walk past the building before I could get to my room, my reason was a weak ass excuse. Excuse me ? How fucking often does anybody have to save anyone in the lecturer's room? According to this statistics I just made up, there is a 0.0% chance of such an incident occurring in a semester. 

   

          Anyway, we resolved the conflict. I guess we're friends again? but we will never be as close as we were previously. I wonder if we were even that close last time, or was I so in a complete delusional phase during our whole friendship that I made it all up? It's  not important anymore. This post will be a closure to everything, and I really wish I do not have to rant about her anymore. It's just not worth it.