Honestly...

Who views my blog??? When I check the statistics for the amount of views I have, I have 12 views from yesterday. Yeah I know it's not a lot but it's still something. Or is google lying to me? WELL I WILL STRANGLE YOU YOU CHEATING BASTARD. Nah google is god.

Recap of my year.

Let me commence with properly capitalizing and punctuating my sentences from now on, shall I?

Ok here it goes.

•January
What happened in January ? I don't remember much except for the face that it's my birthday month. Oh I learnt to ride a motorbike. And it was the Lunar New Years. Funny how I can remember it so well now after a very contradictory starting sentence. Heh. And my Chemistry teacher gave me a birthday note complete with a cat origami. How unusual, it was almost like snowing in June.
(Remember "Sometimes the snow comes down in June 
Sometimes the sun goes 'round the moon"? They never happen.)

•February

Well, Whitney Houston died. That's all I remember. And this year is a leap year right? Right. Well actually I'm not too sure myself, let's just pretend it is.

•March

First test of the year. I'm pretty sure I did quite bad so let's not bring up my sad past.

•April

Wow the description of my months are getting shorter and shorter. What happened in April? I really can't recall. Hahaa the way I asked my question was as though you lived April for me.

•May

Tests again. But we had a mid-term break, and a day before that I met him. The most amazing guy I have come across, the guy I've been eyeing for sometime, the guy I finally managed to tackle.. 25th of May to be precise.

•June 

2 weeks of break, and then back to studies.

•July

I got his number. I ASKED FOR IT. Because I'm a strong independent black woman. And then, MUET. I remember how badly I screw my speaking test up, and the examiner showed no mercy. 

•August

I attended a friend's brother's wedding, and on the 19th was where the magic happened. I've been looking forward to that day since god knows when, and when it finally came it did not disappoint. 

•September

Tests again, and this time it was trials so everyone was relieved when it was over. When it was over, we went for Resident Evil together, it was a good movie mainly because the only thing I could smell was his Polo No.3.  And the following day, he jogged all the way from his house to mine just to see me. It's amazing how jealousy can push you for a 20 min jog.

•October

Started freaking out for the major final exam. It was also the last schooling month and I developed a full blown anxiety that crippled me for two weeks. It was horrible, and that period was the weakest point I have ever experienced in my life, and I have never cried so much. I also developed the habit of calling him at 3something pm everyday. Because my land line calls are free, so why not make full use of it?

•November

Started to really study but was overall still distracted by the evil social networking site Facebook. The major final exam is here, the exam I have been prepping my whole life for. 

•December

Spent a total of 8 days on the beach because the shuttle to the beach is free of charge. Basically sitting at home waiting for the skin of my butt to be rooted to the chair forever.

That's pretty much it, I guess. If I had money then I would have a more interesting life story to tell but unfortunately I don't.

new year's resolution 2012

okay, lets look back on the past 12 months and see how i fare in keeping up with my resolutions. warning : they don't exactly look very promising.

•study my ass off regardless when exam time is - which translates to everyday, if possible

okay... i didn't study everyday for the first 3 quarters of the year. BUT i did study a little more 2 months before the exams, and a month before it i was pumped with adrenaline, taking my book with me even when i went back to bahau. that's an achievement right? right.but in the end, i realised that no matter how much i studied before the exams i will still forget everything. it's an effort put in nonetheless and when i get my results and they're bad at least i can comfort myself knowing i did put a considerably huge amount of effort into it as the sloth i am. so, i guess i can cross this off.

•maintain my sanity although ryan's my class teacher, and although there are possibilities of being taunted over and over again

guess what guys?! i am still sane. maybe thats not the right word to use because i've never been sane.

•do the best i can in STPM; i don't wanna disappoint anyone again. preferably with a 4 pointer but i know that's kinda impossible

a 4 pointer??? pshhh. it's like blowing out a candle 15 miles away with your mouth. that's right, it's impossible. i'd be super happy if i even hit the magical 3.0 jackpot.

•keep my cool at all times

so far i've been doing really well, occasionally snapping at imbeciles but they deserved it.

•be more religious

oh yeah, i've never been more religious knowing that i will screw my STPM up without the help of god sprinkling gold dusts on me.

•spend less time going online (this is gonna be real hard)

honestly speaking, i failed this one. big time. i mean, who can resist the allure of pictures of cats on the internet? and porn. don't forget porn.

•have a more positive outlook of things, like be happy and move on with life

this is one thing that i can definitely check. i have never been happier since i met him on the 25th of may. i am so happy he came into my life (actually i went into his life but it's the same) (even if its not the same let's just pretend it is). he is good looking. smart. fucking adorable, because the word adorable alone isn't enough to emphasise how fucking adorable he is. sweet as the urine of a diabetic person. and just amazing in general. did i mention he is amazing? well let me mention it again. he is amazing.

yep, that's the recap of my 2011 new year's resolution. overall, i would give it a 84% success. i guess i am okay with how things turned out, like my studies for instance. if i could turn back the hands of time and change it, i wouldn't because i would still repeat what i've done.

oh ya, did i also mention it took me so long to remember the email and password to this account? let me mention it again, it took me so long to remember the email and password to this account. 

Birthday wishes in advance

Okay, so the attendance was only 10 out of 15 people so it was kind of a laid back day. We have 3 periods of chemistry today, which means facing ryan for 2 hours, and a lot of weird things happened today,things that are weirder than fiction, i would say.

sooo, the first incident was when i left my haloalkane notes in the class, so i got his permission and brisk-walked back to my class to retrieve my notes. i walked back in a slightly faster than usual pace so that he would not complain about me loitering around the school (windows in the room were tinted). and when i entered the room,he suddenly called out my name and said "i have something to tell you". at that instance panic attack striked me. oh goshh, what did i do this time? after what seemed like an eternity of suspense, he finally revealed that he misplaced his haloalkane notes so we would be doing alcohol instead. jeez, did he do that on purpose OR WHAT? but i was relieved to find out he has no intention to reprimand me of something i didn't know i did, or didn't do.

and the second thing was, he gave us a 5-minute break. he suddenly broke out in a discussion about what we are going to be doing on the 3rd day of chinese new year, and then he got started on the history of the 15 days of the new year celebration. then he came back to me; he asked me "so what are you going to do on the 3rd day of cny?" and i was hesitant with my answer, so i answered "uhh, nothing i guess..." and then i asked him back "you wanna see me is it?" the whole class broke out in a laughing fit, and then he was like "its her birthday" then he called me up to the front and said that he has a gift for me. it was a card, and my response was "really ah?" i was so shocked i didn't know what to do but to walk up to his desk awkwardly and get the card from him. that was too unexpected, i mean we all know he hates me and i hate him too and he backstabs me like there's no tomorrow and i do too so that was a huge shocker. Now he made me feel really bad, because that is a first time any teacher actually make the whole class to sing me birthday song. heck, most of the teachers dont even know i exist.

earlier, i had planned to go up to him and apologize for the hate, but now that he actually handmade me a card, i feel really bad. ugh, i dont think i could gather up my guts and apologize to him. let's just see how it all work out tomorrow.

maybe he isn't such a bad character after all.