depressed, miserable. no one understands.

i attended school yesterday and i did not like it. there was no one that i know of and i felt like a fish out of water. i hate that feeling. although i did make some new friends, but it just cant beat the feeling of having actual close friends that you can talk about anything to.

i felt lonely and stressed. stressed because i really cannot catch up with my studies.

i am two months behind and am clueless as hell.

and the break up is really eating me up from the inside. i cant tell anyone. well, i did tell some of my friends on facebook but i don't get to tell them face-to-face. talking to lauren definitely lifted my spirits up a little, but its just not the same, you know?

i seriously am going crazy.